who is who

7 months

I suppose I was never comfortable in my original body to begin with. So it follows that in a pregnant body, chaos would ensue. I constantly feel the strain of my skin, like I am trapped in a body suit that doesn't fit me. Its too tight.

I measure my fears of birth against the other women in the childbirth class. For as miserable as this has all been, I don't feel very much fear about giving birth. Maybe because pregnancy has been hard, birth means the end of it. A celebration of not only getting to meet him, but to know that I never, never have to do this again. To have my body to myself again.

I get confused about who is who. I stub my toe and for a split second, think that he felt it.

8 months

I feel like giving up, not really an unfamiliar response. How can it nearly destroy me to go for a 2 mile walk? Even sleeping hurts.
Foolishly googling "very active in the womb" hoping research has proven it translates to 'fast birth" but all that comes up is "irritable baby."